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Sep. 10th, 2009

Soviet Dog Experiment


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More 'witchy' and dark stuff will be posted over at my semi-online Book of Shadows. I'll still update this one with more general stuff. Yup yup.


Jul. 30th, 2009

Soviet Dog Experiment


From a conversation with Momo

Is there anything in particular anyone would be interested in learning/knowing about? Obviously things will be biased to my own beliefs, but if there is, I might write some short articles and the like.

Feel free to suggest whatever you like.

Jul. 21st, 2009

Soviet Dog Experiment



Over the last weeks I have been feeling a calling to Wicca/witchcraft/more involved Paganism. Yesterday, it really convinced me after a series of bad events. Today I drew a new animal totem from my deck, an old friend Raven.

Now, I've worked with Crow as long as I can remember being involved in 'the craft', but I have never really worked with Raven as a totem. He has shown himself in my dreams and spreads before now, though. I know some people associate Raven and Crow as one, but to me, they have different energies.

I know Raven is considered to be the creator of all in a lot of legends, and so I associate him with the 'dark', magic, creative side of my being. He is more associated with the astral and metaphysical than the mundane. I hope to use his energies as much as possible over the next few months. I have a feeling I will be working him till the end of the (pagan) year.

Totems always seem to show up when I need them. I just decided yesterday to start performing magic and rituals again, and Raven comes along. Thank you, Spirit. It makes me feel really good that someone is always there, ready to help.

From here.

Magic, Healing, Creation

If a raven totem has come into our life,
magic is at play.
Raven activates the energy of magic
and links it to our will and intention.

With this totem, we can make great changes
in our life;
the ability to take the unformed thought
and make it reality.

The raven shows us how to go into the dark
of our inner self and bring out the light of our true self;
resolving inner conflicts which have long been buried.
This is the deepest power of healing we can possess.

Raven Pictures, Images and Photos

Jul. 8th, 2009

Soviet Dog Experiment


Dream record

I was in some kind of village, with a hill behind it. On the hill was a rather large fox statue (note fox, not a 'kitsune' style, but an actual fox.) The village was preparing for a festival of some sort, and I couldn't find some artwork I had done for it anywhere. I was getting quite annoyed and such. I was a boy, perhaps 16 or so and I had dark brown hair.

At some point in the dream, I heard people saying that the fox God was perhaps angry for some reason, and they mentioned there was a hole in front of her statue. Wondering about this, I trekked up the hill, and noticed the hole. For some reason I had a smaller, rounder fox statue (kind of like a maneki neko) with me, and placed it into the hole, facing the larger statue. The fox God liked this a lot, and sent out a very small Lung/Japanese dragon into the air. It reminded me somewhat of a dragonfly, and was silver and mint-green in colour. It had long, thin wings, which again moved like a dragonfly. Just by looking at it I could tell that it was a lucky dragon, and it flew down to the village.

When I had returned, the festival had started, there was interesting looking food everywhere (maybe Chinese?) and people wearing masks and heavy clothing. I approached the village elder; I needed to tell him that the reason the village had has bad luck recently was because she had been neglected - her shimenawa and shide had long flown away, no one visited anymore and the weather was wearing her down badly. He didn't question me when I told him this, but didn't really look like he'd do anything about it, either.

After that I ran to some friends, who completly ignored me for some reason, and I don't remember why. Something to do with being too close to the God.

Jun. 17th, 2009

Soviet Dog Experiment



As of today I'm working with Goose as a totem. She mentioned various things, but seemed intent on repeating that life never stands still, it always flows, no matter what I think. I won't be in this same place ever again, with these same circumstances, SOMETHING will be different. She wants to work with me and my emotions/human relationships, and also attraction of positive things.

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Emphasis on clearing; all my ritual tools have been put away, and a bowl of water, containing pearl beads (8, as geese are associated with 8, the number of infinity) and a quartz crystal. No matter how much I changed the beads, one sank, so I took this as a sign of imbalance I need to work towards. The feathers are phesant, I think, as I don't have any goose, but she didn't mind. The male and female candles were replaced with neutral, identical ones, though the male/female diety statues remain.

Jan. 13th, 2009

Soviet Dog Experiment



I had a dream las night about a large Shinto shrine located in a small park with a resteurant and other stuff. I only saw the torii in the distance and never got to it though. This occured after I asked Inari-sama to influence my dreams again.

EDIT: Dreamt of this same Shrine again, a few nights ago (2nd June 2009)

I did some card readings for myself tonight and asked about my financial situation. Apparantly the money is there, but I can't see it. Once I do I'll have to make some kind of decision over two things (though the decision need not be final). Travel and wider horizons were hinted at, it was good, anyways. I'll be well off once I get through this transition period and get a hold on my decisions. When I asked about my job, Ace of pentacles popped out and so I took that as a very good sign!

Lizard came into my life as a totem tonight. I've been working with and reading up on them a lot, but tonight he spoke to me (through my cards) and agreed to work with me in order to 'tune' me better, as well as some other things. His species is a sand lizard (Lacerta agilis).

Male Sand lizard, Crooksbury, 2006 Pictures, Images and Photos

Thank you, Lizard!

Jan. 1st, 2009

Soviet Dog Experiment


Interesting dream (dream record)

I think I had gone to work or something and was on my way home when I somehow stepped into a Spirit place. At first I was terrified, there was some scary ghosts around, all looking like they'd stepped straight out of a Japanese horror story. Pale women screaming, traditional-looking ghosts, and even more familiar creatures like Tengu were there. It reminded me of that scene in Pom Poko, but it was very scary in-dream.

In the fields I could see kitsune-bi in bright blues and purples, families of ghosts sat at the side of the road but I wasn't afraid of them, in fact I started a conversation asking what the bright lights were. After they said what it was, a single 'flame' of orange kitsune-bi popped up behind me, illuminating a spirit fox tail which I never noticed before.

After I recieved this 'gift' I went into a small urban area, and noticed that fox spirits/kitsune were living in the area, all standing on their hind legs, dressed in yukatas and similar wear. A father kitsune had come out of his house to toss some water out, and stood there, still, staring at me, his whiskars twitching. I stared back, and shortly his wife came out too, standing next to him, and they both stared again. Eventually I moved on.

I passed some people who noticed my spirit-tail and stared at it before either running away, or acting like they'd hit a lucky jackpot.

All through this dream I was trying to text my Dad to pick me up D| The time, when I looked at the phone, was almost 3am. I don't remember how it ended, but it was a very interesting dream :0

Dec. 30th, 2008

Soviet Dog Experiment


Dream record

For myself, but comments are wlecome.

The rest of the dream... I don't remember, so I'm assuming it's not important. One part of it though, everything seems to 'stop' and I was holding a snake, which I think was coloured red, white and black (like a king snake). It was small and then I went 'watch!' to the person standing next to me.

In front of my eyes, the snake wriggled out of it's skin and became a colourful large moth, it was beautiful. The moth flew up and away, and as we watched it, I instantly knew that this was very significant, and that I should record it. In-dream, it felt like I was watching a very special event.

Snake is one of the totems I work with, but I've never worked with Moth before.
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Dec. 28th, 2008

Soviet Dog Experiment



I need to use this journal more, even if just for myself.

Once again it seemed I had lost contact with my spiritual side, mainly because of the upcoming holidays, college and worries over money. What I can never make myself understand is that if I pray for money, or prosperity, well, it's come to me every time in one way or another. So why don't I pray more? Who knows.

When I say 'pray', it's more like a conversation than a formal prayer. I see all the deities I contact as friends (though 'in high places', so to speak). Of course they often remind me that they can sometimes be as mundane as us, they live here, but as just a different 'type' of spirit from us.

Recently, Shinto has recently gripped me again. I wonder why I keep getting drawn back to this path. First I started running into references and art of youkai and kitsune, then I keep seeing foxes everywhere (which I tend to associate with Inari), and finally, I get a book 'The Fox and the Jewel', which I've been after forever, for Christmas. Finally I decided that Inari needs a seperate shrine in my room, and so s/he (I'll probably tend to refer to Inari as she) now has a make-shift shrine against the back wall of my room (I'm not sure which direction, I think North/North-East). Ever since I put that shrine there I've been feeling much more focused and at peace, and I hope to use it every morning for daily prayers and affirmations. My offerings will usually be incense, but sometimes flowers and fruit.

I don't fully understand Inari and her rich mythology, and her countless forms and meanings but I know what she means to me, my own personal meanings. I feel so drawn to Inari worship, and everything around Japanese folklore and Shinto makes me feel so at peace and comfortable it's like I could go inside my meditations and stay there forever. My sacred space in my meditations is also a small Inari shrine. I'd like to find out if I have some kind of past life connection to Ancient Japan, or if it's just a passion.

At the altar I did a small meditation in which Inari appeared as an old man to me. He led me inside and gave me some green tea in a small cup. There was a black board and he wrote a word on it which definatly began with 'T', but I can't remember what it was as my mind started to analyze it (Toulouse, Tous, Toose, Tuomous). He found this amusing and said I'll know when I find it. I've had various totems and deities show me words like this before, and usually I've realized their meanings, so I'll be looking out for this one.


Some photos of my small Inari shrine can be found here - http://wingedwolf666.livejournal.com/47117.html
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Sep. 22nd, 2008

Dino - :D


Mabon photos

Mabon 2008 photos!

Follow the fake cut for Mabon photos :3 I didn't actually do any circle work as I had no real reason (or room) to. I tend to only cast circles when I actually have magic work to do. I basically did my various lines to the God, Goddess and other deities and totems. I thanked them for the past year, going through each thing I had recieved (well, not EVERYTHING that would take forever) and expressed my gratitude. I then bid good luck to the God/Arthur/the Sun as he started on his journey to the West. I ate the apples and drank the cider in celebration of the beginning of Autumn and the harvest.

(Cross-posted to internalrealms and isolatedhowl)

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